the state of me

For those of you waiting with baited breath, I have decided to go ahead and get the surgery over with now. Then I can hurry up and get better and get back to my normal life. Much thanks to those who helped me deliberate through this one.

Things I want to do before my surgery~

•see Possesion, The Good Girl, XXX, and My Wife Is An Actress
•get my hair cut and colored
•get a massage

I saw Possesion today (very good and Aaron Eckhart? YUMMY) with E so I am off to a good start. Oh and I made the hair appointment for Wednesday. I need to get my hair done now so it will be in shape for AM's wedding on September 28. I'm thinking post-surgery I won't feel like doing it.

Excitement~AM and I are seeing Michelle Branch and Sheryl Crow in concert on September 18, 10 days before the wedding. If I have to hobble to my seat with my walker to see this show, I will. But hopefully I'll be walker-less by then.

posted by Alissa @ 10:14 PM

Days are weird when you get up much earlier than you usually do (6:40) and go to the hospital and tell your surgeon you don't really want the surgery you are scheduled to have in two weeks, because you only scheduled it in April, for August, because your student health insurance runs out August 31 and you thought it would be a good idea, but now you have decided to get your own insurance and can put the surgery off because before, in April, your doctor said in August you'd discuss having surgery. But now, you've scheduled it for August 26 and your doctor says you definitely need the surgery before the year is over because the plastic lining of your circa 1996 hip replacement is wearing away and soon it will be metal on metal and that's not good, and you don't want to fracture it and you really need to have the surgery before your left hip becomes "problematic" but the thing is you've spent your whole summer feeling like shit because there is a shortage of Enbrel the great new arthritis drug that changed your life back in 1999 when it was introduced, in fact, it changed a lot of lives, so many lives that practically everyone who has arthritis is taking it and now there's a shortage because it's very complicated to make Enbrel--something about hamster cells according to the article that was in the paper--and you didn't have Enbrel for FIVE MONTHS and not having it for so long took it's toll on you, physically and emotionally, and so now, now that you finally have it stored in your fridge again you are supposed to stop taking it two weeks before your surgery (ie, today, ha ha, not a chance) that you don't even want because you finally feel good again and are feeling your life is an endless cycle of surgery recovery feel good surgery recovery feel good and so on. So you get up at 6:40 to make a 7:30 appointment and discuss all this with you doctor (who you love, for the record) and he says, you decide, so you are right where you started, at 6:40 in the morning.

posted by Alissa @ 6:27 PM